Firstly, I'd like to apologize for the following blog. Prepare yourselves.
I really think I should just spill my guts to Post Secret.
There's so much I want/need to say to someone, but in reality I'm way too embarassed to share those things with people I know... even my closest friends.
Sure, I tell my close friends a lot, but there are things I just can't say because they make me feel incredibly stupid.
Like about the boy that prompted my emo post a little while ago. I don't even know him, but he's occupying my thoughts and making me feel like an idiot without having to say or do anything. Someone please explain to me why this person I don't even know is driving me up the wall :[
Maybe I should just come clean about the whole thing on the last day of class or something. "Hey, I seem to have some kind of interest in you, even though I don't know you. You fascinate me. When you smile, my heart beats a little bit faster. You have great style. I love every project you've done in class because I know I could never come up with anything like that. I love your hair. You hardly ever talk, but when you do,..."
& this is where I stop.
Someone give me advice... and don't tell me to talk to him. It's impossible for me to do.
Anyway, I look forward to Idol tonight and not having to work tomorrow!
xoxo
Song of the day: Gold Lion - The Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
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Okay, firstly, I feel like I need to tell you about all the times I've felt embarassed and like an idiot, so you'll realize you're not alone.
Secondly, about this guy problem, I say just embrace it. Accept that you're not gonna talk to him, and just enjoy the crush you've got. Honestly, I had a crush on a guy in my math class (for less reason than you - just because he looked good). He was on my mind all too much - I even wrote a song about him. Finally, I worked up courage to talk to him. Then I kind of wished I hadn't. He wasn't the kind of guy I imagined, and worse, he liked me. And I kind of stopped liking him.
I really had wished I just admired from afar. So my suggestion is just to enjoy it like a celebrity crush. Let it occupy your mind if it so desires, just as long as it's not interferring with what needs to be done.
1) Nothing you said would ever be incredibly stupid.
2) Maybe it's the fascination of getting to know him, and the idea of new experiences.
3) Keep at what you're doing. Notice the small things, why? Because if/when he ever talks to you, you will know so much more about him.
4) Lust is a very, very, very powerful thing, but it's truly okay. Even though it doesn't feel like it.
5) It always makes class interesting.
6) It gives you something to think about, and dream about.
7) Really, I see it as being a great thing. Just go with it, I promise there's not a thing wrong with you. You're wonderful, a great person, and friend, and I love you very much.
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