Late night/early morning ramblings

1. I can't believe my 1B teacher notices as much as she does and had the guts to ask me about my personal life.

2. I hate weekends. They just remind me of my situation at home and frankly, I just get really down. Don't get me wrong, I love seeing my dad, but at the same time it's really hard to see him like that, not knowing if he'll be that way for the rest of his life.

3. Across the Universe is still my comfort movie. Even if I cry through the whole thing, it just makes me feel better. It's beautiful and the music is phenomenal.

4. I absolutely cannot wait until Coachella. I'M SO EXCITED.

5. New York, I Love You is the most beautiful movie I've seen since Across the Universe. It comforted me in some strange way.

6. Listening to Phillip complain about his body today made me realize that I really should stop whining about mine. Just because I personally don't like it doesn't mean it's hopeless. Plus, it could be worse.

7. I have a photobooth/Sticki Picki addiction. There is no cure.

8. I love re-discovering old music. Today Negien and I listened to The Cliks, Young Love, and Cobra Starship. It was fantastic. I'd forgotten what a classic Hollaback Boy is :]

9. Certain events that occurred today made me realize how horribly self conscious and pessimistic I am. I need some confidence and optimism. Ha, who am I kidding? I've said that since high school. It ain't happening.

10. I hate talking about Shiny Toy Guns now because I can't stand any of the new stuff, including the new girl.

11. I want blue hair. Or something.

12. I haven't seen a good horror movie in a while. I need to see one soon.

13. I have no idea why I'm blogging like this. I think I just need somewhere to put these thoughts because I keep them in my head all day and they drive me nuts most of the time.

14. I want to get out of California really badly... I left my heart on the east coast the first time I stepped foot in Boston.

15. I'm so effing tired of this art crap. I still love it, but my classes are driving me INSANE. It's so much less fun now that I'm obligated to do it... I'm so disappointed in myself for being so anti-inspired by everything. blah.

16. I'll miss Raleigh this summer :[

17. I will always hate my birthday. ALWAYS. It's probably one of the most miserable times for me every year. Christmas will be miserable too, from now on.

18. Kayla, you are an amazing person. I have no idea what I'd be doing without those texts/phone calls :] COME TO CALI NOW<3

19. I want a new last name. A new heritage. A new family. kthx.

20. When I turned 20, I had a midlife crisis. I feel like I'm going nowhere.

Yeah ok. I'm sleepy. Perhaps I should get to bed? I have to be up in 6 hours =_=

xoxo

Song of the day: Smile for the Paparazzi - Cobra Starship